++what i've been looking for++

It's hard to believe
That I couldn't see

You were always there beside me
Thought I was alone
With no one to hold
But you were always right beside me

This feelings like no other

I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
the way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
no one like you so lonely before I finally found
what i've been looking for

So good to be seen
So good to be heard

Don't have to say a word

For so long I was lost
So good to be found

I'm loving having you around

This feeling's like no other

I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
No one like you
So lonely before, I finally found
what I've been looking for

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tuju lagu yg kiut miut ni utk "Z"

++duka weekend++

aku mls nak cerita pjg2..
tp aku just nak ckp..
weekend 12-13 july 08 is the worst weekend that i ever had..
since friday lg aku dah rasa kurang happy..
sat and sun is supposed to relax myself..
tp through out those two days aku rasa extremely weird..

when sunday come.. somthing happen..
the story begin when my friend ask for help..
for something yg aku tak mungkin dpt tlg..
she beg me.. of course as a friend aku serba sedikit rasa bsalah..
lebih2 lg dia byk tlg aku selama ni..
aku cuba cari jln dan kata2 yg terbaik utk menolak permintaan dia..
smpai lah pd satu kejadian aku tersalah send msg kt org yg aku sayang..
ntah lah camana leh tersalah.. spjg hari aku pikir pasal dia
nk msg org lain pun termsg kat dia..

dia mula curiga bila baca sms aku..
as an ordinary human being.. sape2 pun aku rasa curiga bila baca sms aku..
aku tak salah kan dia..
aku try explain what actually had happened...
tp aku rasa dia dah hilang rasa percaya kat aku..
spjg mlm aku tak dpt tido..

i've make a mistake.. i've to admit it..
but one thing i would like him to know..
i've no intention to hurt his heart..
and all my smses to him have explained all..
explained my feeling towards him.. really comes from my heart.

dugaan.. mmg ini dugaan bg kami..
curiga mencurigai?? kdg2 perlu dan kdg2 tak perlu..
yang penting.. sejauh mana kepercayaan kpd psgn masing2..
sejauh mana rasa sayang pd psgn masing2..
harapan aku.. semoga aku dan dia tabah hadapi semua ni..
lebih2 lg diri aku yg terlalu sensitif..

++kenalan2 lama++

dah lama tak update sini..
ada bbrp perkara nape aku tak update crita kat sini..
one of the reason is my laptop tgh kronik..
nk minta ganti ler tu..
tp aku manade bajet lg...
kt opis mmg tak smpt nk update story..
hari ni aku nk cerita perjumpaan aku dgn org2 di masa lalu ku..
kenalan lama aku..
meh aku citer satu2 k

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Kisah (1) :
suatu ptg tu ex-classmate aku (ni zmn kanak2 petronas dulu) dtg wstation aku..
kebetulan dia keje kt company tmpt aku tgh attach skrg..
janji nk minum ptg after opis hour.. aku ok jer..
bila dah lama tak lepak sama.. of coz byk crita dikongsi bsama
bila ingat nostalgia lama masing2 tak leh nk thn gelak..
tu kisah 5-6 thn lepas.. thn 2002-2003.
cepat giler masa berlalu.. masing2 dah keje dah skrg..
teringat kt kwn2 lama.. hmm rindunye masa tu..
bercerita zmn kegemilangan masing2 .. hahaha
hny kami jer tau.. kami dan classmates yg lain..
rasanya semua org takkan lupe time2 gembira tu...
opss lupe aku nk kenalkan kwn aku tu.. kitaorg panggil dia kicap..
sbb apa?? dulu dia agak gelap.. sbb tu kena panggil kicap..
tp skrg takde dah gelap sgt.. biasa2 jer..

tgh borak tu tiba2 kwn dia lalu so dia pun join sama..
kebetulan kwn dia tu aku baru jer kenal time opis hour td..
so tak perlu dia nk kenalkn lg kwn dia tu kat aku..

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Kisah (2)
Sabtu tu aku dgn malasnye bgn pg..
biasanye mmg aku lmbt bgn time weekend..
sbb tu aku mls nk buat janji waktu pg kalau weekend..
sbb aku tau aku akan bgn lmbt..
tp sabtu tu aku bgn awal sbb aku nk bfast..
tgh2 bfast tu aku terpandang 2 muka yg sgt familiar..
"wah.. bos2 aku".. aku nak terjerit dlm hati..
2 org ex-bosses aku kt tmpt keje lama aku dulu..
bos operation dan bos hse... En M dan En Parisa..
tp aku takde lah nak panggil diorg encik..
aku panggil nama jer.. kalau kwn aku si A tu mungkin kot dia panggil encik..
hahah aku kutuk A lak...
ok sambung crita.. aku bgn dr meja aku utk say hello kat diorg..
diorg pun terkejut.. tak sangka gak jumpa aku kt hotel tmpt aku stay skrg...
diorg ajak duduk meja diorg.. aku angkat lah cawan aku pindah tmpt minum...
crita punya crita rupa2nya diorg dah transfer tmpt lain gak..
diorg skrg kat kerteh.. rupa2nya diorg mmg selalu dtg KL time weekend..
yelah, kerteh bkn ada ape pun..
so byk dah plan yg diorg nk buat.. aku angguk jer bila diorg ajak join aktiviti diorg..
adehh rindunye ngan ex-bosses aku ni..
sambil2 tu diorg ckp semua boss2 kt kk dulu byk dah transfer..
terkenang semula tmpt keje lama.. miss that time so much.. miss all those ppl..
dah hmpir 2 hours minum.. masing2 nak balik dah..
diorg balik kerteh.. aku balik bilik....

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Kisah (3)
aku terasa nk keluar je siang hari sabtu tu..
sbb aku bosan sgt stay sorg2...
tp bila kwn aku msg ajak tgk movie mlm tu nnt..
aku kenselkan niat nk keluar...
baik aku kelaur mlm jer...
so kenalan lama yg aku jumpa skrg ni ialah ex-coursemate aku...
sama2 budak petronas dulu gak...
kebetulan hari ni brithday dia..
mlm tu dia jemput aku..
lps mkn2 celebrate bday dia.. kitaorg tgk movie..
movie best giler.. tgk citer Wanted..
nak terjatuh jantung aku tiap kali action ganas keluar...
citer tu mmg ganas.. tp superp.
pas tgk movie.. jam dah lewat.. kitaorg balik terus..

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tu jer la citer utk topik ni..
nnt aku update lg k...

++awal minggu yg bz++

isnin.. hari yg terlalu bz..
keje aku bertimbun..
sejak dua menjak pindah kl ni aku dah terlalu bz
pg2 isnin tu dlm kul 5.40am 'Z' call aku..
dia otw gi tmpt keja baru dia..
kena report duty kul 8am..
pas ckp kejap.. aku tido semula..
tp lom smpt alarm aku bunyi dia call lg..
dia kata dkt nak smpai dah..
aku rasa lega sgt..
atleast dia selamat dlm pjlnan...
aku terbaring jer.. mls nak terus mandi..

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kat opis aku teringat Q x bg lg gmbr kawin dia
aku ym dia minta dia send pic dia..
dia send bbrp keping pic dia..
lahai.. comel nye dia time kawin..
ala seri pengantin lah katakan..
tp yg plg aku tertarik hubby dia comel gile..
jatuh cinta aku.. hahahha jgn marah Q..
aku tak ambik hubby ko.. aku kan ada Z..
xder yg lain k.. :p

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hari ni.. aku masih lg terlalu bz..
rasa tak smpt nk bgn dr tmpt duduk..
tp yg aku terindu bila Q ckp diorg tgh buat PBC1..
miss that time.. last year aku buat PBC1..
PBC tu Planning and Budget COmmittee..
letih lak aku rasa hari ni..
tiap2 hari jln kaki pegi balik opis..
pegi 15 mins balik pun 15 mins..
penat aku.. dah lah kurus.. makin kurus aku jdnya nt..
taknak lah aku makin kurus..
tp xper.. aku rasa makin sihat lah.. sbb hari2 exercise..